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Underwater

I have sporadic episodes where I feel like I've floated somewhere. I've said that it feels like dreaming because life in front of me gets muted but now I think it's more like being underwater: weightless, blurred, sounds distorted while I'm trying to listen or see clearly. Or like being in a loud party when you have to do your best lip reading to understand whomever you're having a conversation with. It's exhausting.


Aloof. Distracted. Un-Caring. Conceited. Closed off.


All words that have been used by others to describe me, usually (But not always) when I'm in the bottom of this metaphorical swimming pool.


Stress is a big trigger for me. I think it's time for vacation.






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